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Weeks ago while discussing my breakthrough in understanding that hunger is the body’s signal for nutrients not calories, I said to my wellness coach, “I’m almost embarrassed to admit it. It’s so obvious. Eating fruits and vegetables, it’s so easy.”
Without missing a beat she corrected me. “It’s simple. It’s not easy.”
She’s right, but I don’t like it. I want easy. I’m ready for easy.
I have the knowledge. I have the desire. Why am I still battling myself when I have to make a food choice? It’s not every time. Some things are really easy. Breakfast is easy for me, I wake up hungry and waiting to eat until after I’ve left home is not an option. I’m much more interested in fruit for breakfast rather than sugar cereal or donut anyway.
But as soon as I walk out the door, choices are everywhere. When I bring my lunch to work there are still coworkers that invite me to go to lunch with them. I know what I brought for myself is better. It’s so simple, and still I make bad choices. Maybe I’m interested in the company.
When the afternoon cravings hit, I can eat the apple I brought, or opt for the tasteless banana mini muffins my coworker brought in. (At least when I made that bad choice I threw it away after one bite.)
On my way home from work I start thinking about dinner, what I’m going to have for dinner, and how long it’s going to take to cook that dinner. And quickly stopping and picking something up sounds so much faster. So much easier.
It gets tiring some days, thinking of food choices. And it’s scary, because I have worked really hard to get where I am, and I know if I’m not careful all my strides could go away. I just want it to be natural. I just want it to be second nature. And maybe one day it will be easy. For now, it’s an awful lot of work.
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Using the term “an awful lot of work” sounds like a good way to make it all feel dreadful. You didn’t feel this way during local august, right? Maybe you need another challenge
Comment by Lisa October 7, 2009 @ 10:25 amIts fall and heading towards winter….time for restoring, resting, and hibernating (!?), so maybe it’s just a time to make something a little bit exciting or new. Simple is not always easy, but it can be with a little planning and the right (positive) outlook.
Let’s talk about it on Friday when I’m in…we’ll include other people so they can’t think you’re hogging my attention
I think you uncovered a strategy when you mentioned going out to lunch for the sake of socialization. How about making your food choices more intersting by having someone over for dinner and showing off your new knowledge?
Comment by Cosmic Cowgirl October 7, 2009 @ 11:17 amIt is a lot of work, and it can be rewarding too. Maybe putting in the word “awful” was a bit excessive. I just wish I could take a vaction and not focus on it so much. But I feel like if I do I will go backwards.
Comment by pshermann October 7, 2009 @ 12:50 pm